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[okami-zero]

So, in light of what is going down on the Blue Bird Site, I had some thoughts i think I just need to vent.

My main use for Twitter, actually was similar to my main reason for joining tumblr - art. I actually, thought I was going to post gunpla build stuff, but that has yet to happen (who can remember to stage and take photos while you are enjoying The Build™? xD).

But, the main difference between my art following on Twitter and over here... well, aside from the obvious restrictions that led to the Purge of 2018 (was it 2018?) not being present over there, and most of my timeline being art from people I followed, or retweets from them (which oftentimes lead to more follows... >.>)... sorry rambling. It's what I do., ^_^;

The biggest, hugest, most glaring difference, is I did my best not to interact with BS on that site. I DID speak up a few times, but otherwise I was just there for pretty pictures, and wishing some folks I followed HBD with a particular GIF I like. x3 And my list on there was LONG, so getting through stuff was an oftentimes fun way to kill some time (pre-Musk). It's gotten harder to see stuff over there from my follows (despite taking some steps to try and make it easier on mobile).

But I also kind of censored myself. Sure, I interact with art with supportive comments and gushing on there (and will for as long as I can!), but I didn't post nearly as much "ME" as I do here. And for me, tumblr is safer, in a way, especially with being able to private stuff and having more control over what I see, etc.

And I am kind of worried about a ton of people from Twitter coming here and my follows list getting as gargantuan as it is over there-

Aaaand a lightbulb goes off in my head.

If the artists I follow over there come over here, I can just make a sideblog specifically for following and perusing art. Ayaaaaa~

Okay, that made my current mood a whole ton better! Damn!

Will be posting my weekly G-Wtich reaction later! Cheers!

[lost-in-the-80s]

(This is really long and personal, so sorry in advance)

Hey, it's me, Harley, you probably know me as harley-m-rose, well, not anymore… now I'm lost-in-the-80s but I'm still the same Harley, I promise aksjj

I know that I've already done a new year’s post, but I was drunk and not able to formulate long phrases in english, so consider this the official one.

As I've said in some tag games, I reactivated this blog last year, always reading fics and using it daily for content of my favorite bands, but I've never got the guts to post anything, so now I'm gonna tell you how I got those guts.

To be honest, this year was extremely difficult for me, for the first time in my life none of my plans worked out and I saw myself alone and lost.

I stayed at home for most part of this year, and I was slowly deteriorating myself. In the beginning I'd try to find things to keep my mind busy, but after the third month nothing distracted myself from the fact that I had failed.

I had failed in every single aspect of my life and I saw nothing left for me, I saw no future, and no meaning behind doing anything like changing my clothes or taking shower, because all of it was meaningless, just like my life.

I'd spend 90% of my time sitting on my couch, listening to the same playlist, feeling the pain of my hurted ego for not having accomplished what I dreamed of, and when the playlist was over, I'd play it again, cause I wanted to feel that pain, because it was the only thing I could feel, and when I wasn't feeling pain, I'd be angry, getting annoyed when people tried to talk to me or when I had to do anything other than sit on the couch and deteriorate.

But July arrived, and I finally started to see some light, I got a job and with it I had to force myself to go out and interact with people and that helped me a lot, I finally felt useful again, and that made me get better.

Day after day I'd wake up better and then September arrived and I was scrolling through Tumblr on my lunch time when I saw a post by @tuffduff, where she said "I've never made a haters to lovers fic, but if I ever did, it would be with Dave Mustaine" and that was the moment that I realized there were very few fics about him, so I begged her in the comments to write it, and then complained about the lack of Dave content to a friend of mine and she said "why don't you write for him then?"

(If you're reading this, thank you for playing an important role in this story Chels)

So I got home and started to think of ideas for fics and the first idea wasn't with Dave, it was Duff, and I got so excited about it that I wrote it and sent her the full fic asking for her opinion, and after she assured me 3 times that it was good, I opened up Tumblr, posted and turned off my phone, too afraid of what would happen next.

It's funny to think about it now akshkh

You guys made me feel so welcomed and warm, it was as if I was the new kid in school, but everyone was nice, and it meant the world to me.

After that came many other fics, but unfortunately I lost my job in october, and just a few days later I went through some familiar problems and I started to feel unbearably sad again, I’d spend 50% of the time sad, and the other 50% I'd feel nothing.

But then the same friend asked me what was that week's fic, and I thought to myself, I need to do that, I can't simply stop posting, people are expecting me to post it.

And now I'm so glad I forced myself to write, because after 2 weeks forcing myself, I started to get so many ideas and I stopped feeling sad or empty, because I had an occupation, and every time someone reblogged, commented or likes my fics, I felt more and more inspired to go on.

Writing gave me a light, a peaceful place where I could express myself and forget about my problems, and the only reason why I'm feeling good now it's because of this blog and the people I've met through this.

I've got the chance to meet some amazing people here who became friends I want to take for life and I simply love to login and see all of you on my dash. Some of the people who cared more for me in 1 month or so, than some friends had ever cared for me.

Thank you so much for everyone who started following me this year, and to everyone who took their time to listen to this annoying brazilian that didn't know what "simpin" meant aksjskjs. Thank you for all of you who read my fics, thank you for giving me a reason to smile and stay sane.

If you're still reading this (god bless you cause it was long as hell) THANK YOU!! I mean it with all my heart, you have a place in my heart, and you make me smile every time I see you in my notis bar ❤️

I wish y'all an amazing year, and that you guys are able to achieve all your goals and dreams and that happiness will overtake you every single day!

Love you! - Harley :)

As I had promised I'm gonna tag the people who wanted to be aware of my new user name bellow:

@rumoured-whispers @roger-taylors-car @bigdaddylars @brokenroseee @emometalhead @dustofbrokenheart @fluff-moo @ginny-rose-sixx @teasid @mitchgrassified @autoblast-loud-and-fast @deafshepherd @cominunderfire @dynamitebabe @polka-dot-duff @vinylvintage

[dynamiteabs]

          So I've been thinking for awhile now, and for my sanity, my blogs will be going private & selective this week as soon as I finish my revised rules page which is in the works right meow. For a good chunk of y'all nothing will change though. I accidentally wrote a lot so tldr at the bottom.

          I hate the word selective, it sounds snobby. But I guess by now people understand it just means something like I can't think of any plots for these two, sorry, or I don't think these two characters/our writing will mesh/meshes well. Like there's only so many hours in the day, and as much as I love a challenge, you can't go forcing something if it's just not right. We're here to have fun.

          Around this time last year I got burnt out on my main muses I'd been playing for years and took a break until November when I couldn't resist and Junkrat had to come out to play. During that break, I tried to figure out what caused the burn out, and I'm pretty sure most of it was me trying to make everyone else happy, which ironically, didn’t make me happy in the long run.

          It was a ton of small stuff that added up over time, mostly. I don’t want to go into it all but to give an example -- I’d been RPing with someone’s oc a long time on one of my main canon characters. And yeah, her oc was kinda self inserty, and that was fine because I know how tough it is, especially for female ocs to get decent rp. I don’t remember how it happened but she said she wanted to rp with my oc, so I agreed but told her that I wanted to make icons first. So like a week and 300 icons later, I told her I was ready and we discussed it. I made the starter, and based on playing with her oc and knowing my oc’s personality, I thought they’d get along great. I’d also assumed she’d read some of my oc’s threads and knew how he was. Apparently not, because when she read the starter she laughed in a bad way and said her oc would punch him and storm off or something like that (he wasn’t being rude or mean or anything that would warrant a slap. Though he might have made a pun, but my canon muse made puns all the time and her oc loved them sooo). So I was like fine go for it, it’d be hilarious. But she meant she didn’t want to rp at all.

          That really sucked and I tried not to take it personally, but when you think someone’s your friend, and you’ve worked years on a character only to get slapped down by someone who just pulled something out their ass to ship with your canon character, I couldn’t let it go so I confronted her about it. Ultimately she said something along the lines of, “I don’t owe you anything.” I said fine, I’ll remember that. And since that went both ways, I stopped rping with her since I didn’t owe her bending my character to like hers when he normally wouldn’t. I mean, it’s true, we don’t owe each other anything. I’m just a dumbass who believes in wanting to make their friends happy even if it inconveniences myself I guess.

          Well not anymore! New Year’s resolution -- do what makes me and my muses happy and not worry about trying to please others. It’s going to be tough but by making my blogs private and selective, it’s a decent first step and will also help with keeping me sane with running multiple blogs. So yeah, I’m sorry in advance.

tldr; Going Private & Selective this week. Even if I unfollow you, you are awesome and an amazing writer and it is nothing personal! 💖 Some reasons I might unfollow you:

We’ve never interacted (ic and ooc).

We don’t have any threads going but I’ve attempted to send you asks for memes you reblog and you never answer them or send me any.

You don’t trim your posts. omg please trim your posts, friends! I even reblogged a tutorial of how to do it without any html knowledge. I don’t mind short untrimmed ones but when I have to scroll for like five to ten seconds at my desktop’s highass resolution... 👀

We have interacted, but our writing and/or characters just aren’t meshing. Again, nothing personal. Baby you’re a firewoooork~!

If you discriminate against OCs and/or ignore female muses (and no, giving female muses one liners every now and then doesn’t count as you rping with them).

          I will be soft-blocking those I unfollow for their convenience, so no worries. If, on the small chance you were following just to read my threads, feel free to re-follow and let my Junkrat entertain you. 💖